Here I Am
Before you begin reading, stop a moment. Close your eyes and breathe. Breathe deeply…. Breathe slowly. Notice your body as it changes its rhythm. Don’t think. Just notice.
If you have trouble finding a calm, quiet place, don’t worry, don’t struggle, don’t work at it. Just breathe. Just notice. Be aware of your breath as it travels its course…in and out…in……and out……and rest…just rest. Let go of the controls you’re placing on your mind, your emotions, your spirit.
You will feel a shift, the slightest change in the tension in your body, its placement, its intensity. In the space left where the tension once was, in the breathing room that remains where once you held a death grip on the controls…this is where you begin. This is the door to your soul.
Now, open your eyes.
We spend most of our days living somewhere outside of ourselves, disconnected from our essence, our core self, cloaking ourselves instead in the outer culture…the over culture. If you are like me, as your day picks up speed you feel yourself leaning forward, pushing outward, grasping for a foothold outside yourself. You reach for something. What? An anchor? A client? A new project? A friend? A kindred spirit? A cupcake? A drink? We wake up every day and go out into the world in search of what? Are we looking for that someone who will keep us going, that something that will keep us feeling alive, connected, anchored? What is it that we are searching for?
Most of the time, we come home empty-handed. Why?
We think we don’t know what we want, or what we are looking for. The truth is we are looking in the wrong place. It is not “out there”. Never was. Never will be. It is right here, right now, waiting…within us… in this space that only we can set free…that only we can allow to breathe…to live. The most spectacular, incredible, powerful gift, the gift that is us…that is you and that is me…is here, right now…waiting…waiting for you to notice…waiting for me to notice…waiting for us to say “ah….there I am…thank you”.