Ready to Begin Again
Artist:
Charles James Lewis
1830 – 1892
I’m ready to begin again.
It’s not the first day of a new year, or Monday, or my birthday. It’s not the first of the month, or a new decade. It’s Tuesday morning, somewhere toward the end of November and I’m two years into a new decade. I am, however, ready to begin a new chapter in my life. It’s time, and I am ready, as ready as I am in this moment. Ready enough.
I don’t plan to wait for a sign from heaven, the conclusion of my court case, or a big break. I don’t plan to try and make a decision, or figure out what’s right, or how best to handle life. No, I’m done thinking, or shall I say over-thinking. I’m done speculating, pondering, analyzing, worrying, agonizing, and all the other -izing things we do to avoid connecting with the deepest part of ourselves. It’s time to put one foot in front of the other and do what comes naturally.
How much of our lives do we spend trying to decide or figure out how to live? How many hours do we spend escaping ourselves when the indecision becomes painful? How many moments have been lost to pointless, meaningless activities that we pretend are meaningful? Precious moments, hours, days, months, years lost to something less than our heart’s deepest desires.
What we long for is unique to each of us, but we all have the opportunity every moment we are alive to connect to our heart of hearts. We can dare to enter in and discover the breadth, the depth and the power of what lies within, but, it is a choice. We have free will. We get to choose to go there…or not.
I have entered in. I have run in fear. I have lived on the edge of indecision. I have escaped, abandoned, avoided…dared, embraced, explored…denied and accepted. Today, I choose to begin again. Will you?
© Dorothy Sander 2013
Aging Abundantly | Women Over Fifty | Empty Nesters | Caregivers | Aging Gracefully 
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What would I do without you, Laurie!
Oh how I needed to read this today! It is like my morning thoughts are right here for me! Thanks for putting into words my very inner feelings!
I’m so glad my words spoke to you today. They must have been meant for you!
Great post. I begin every morning when the sun rises.
Yes, I don’t want to wait till Monday to start the next best thing.
The next best thing is right here, right now! and you are one of those things for me!
You are so right, Dorothy. Every day is an opportunity to begin again in one way or another. There are always choices to be made that enhance our life and the lives of those we touch.